Ume: Altair?
Altair: Oh… hi, Ume.
Ume: What are you doing in Walnutburg?
Altair: I could ask you the same thing.
Ume: That’s not… [sighs] I just wasn’t expecting to see you here.
Altair: Well, you can just pretend you didn’t.
Ume: Altair?
Altair: Oh… hi, Ume.
Ume: What are you doing in Walnutburg?
Altair: I could ask you the same thing.
Ume: That’s not… [sighs] I just wasn’t expecting to see you here.
Altair: Well, you can just pretend you didn’t.
and… I just keep making mistakes.
Ume: What exactly?
Altair: Act like everything is fine… like we just pick things up and none of that just happened.
Ume: I don’t expect that. It’s just…
Altair: Just, what? Did you really think I would be okay with seeing you? Well, I’m not, Ume. You planned a raid on my wedding… and… oh berry… Sirius…
Ume: …He’s in jail.
Altair: [choked sob] You need to go.
Ume: Altair…
Altair: Stop. Just stop. Whatever you’re thinking, just get it out of your head right now. I don’t even know everything that’s happened… I need to figure it out, to process it all. And to be perfectly honest, you’re the last person I want to see right now. So can you just go?
Ume: Fine…but promise me you’ll call me when you get out?
Altair: I can’t promise that…Goodbye Ume.
Altair: Ume…? What are you doing here?
Ume: You’re awake…
Altair: You look like hell.
Ume: [chuckles] Sleeping in hospital chairs will do that to you.
Altair: …how long have you been here?
Ume: Almost every night…for two months.
Altair: Two months..?
Ume: How are a feeling?
Altair: A lot like how you look.
Ume: You’ve been through a lot. Do you need me to get you anything?
Altair: …Ume. Don’t do this.
It’s a surreal experience waking up after so long. How life just kind of… happens without you and you’re just there, stuck in time, having to rely on others to put together the missing pieces.
I’ve tried visting Sirius…
…but I’m always turned away.
I can’t say that I blame him. My choice has been made. A life for a life. That’s what that moment boiled down to. I didn’t choose his…
…I wouldn’t want to see me either.
I didn’t have to deal with any of the immediate consequences. Instead, it was like I showed up late to the battle. By the time I got there all that was left was broken pieces and wounded hearts. The life I had before? Just vanished into the thin air… almost like it never existed.
Ume: Aster, you can’t make me choose like that. It’s… complicated.
Aster: [sobbing] Complicated it right. Just go… it’s clear what your decision is.
Ume: That’s not–
Aster: Just get out. I can’t do this anymore.
Ume: I’m sorry…
Two months…
That’s how long I was out…
Aster: Tell me you’re not going to the hospital again.
Ume: I have to go. She almost died for me.
Aster: I get that, Ume. I really do. I’ve tried my hardest to be supportive but… I just can’t anymore. Between the extra hours at the station and the late nights at the hospital… you’re not exactly giving me the impression that you’re wanting to be here.
Ume: You want me to just abandon her?
Aster: No. I want you to make a decision. Where would you rather be?
That image is burned into my mind, a reoccuring nightmare that I can’t seem to shake.
Part of me wishes I could have taken that moment back. That I would have stayed put. Maybe Sirius would still be here and everything would be fine… At the same time…
…could it really be?
In that moment there were no happy endings.
Summer: Ma’am, I’m sorry but I’m afraid you’re going to have to wait in the lobby. We’re taking her in for surgery now.
Clover: Please, please, be okay.
Summer: Ma’am you have to–
Clover: Geeze, I know already. Just take good care of her, okay?
Summer: We’ll do our best.